It All Happens at Once

Personal posts are my least favorite to write. My hands get sweaty when I start to type. I wonder how the person reading it is going to digest the words. Will it be absorbed the way that I intended? There is often a constant battle in my head of whether to even write at all. I want to write. So… here I am, putting the letters down and getting out of my non personal post rut. I remind myself that I am doing it for myself. Something to look back on, reflect on, and to be grateful and thankful for.

Lately there have been a lot of changes. Some of the changes are so exciting to me while others are likely starting to grow me some grey hairs. There have been three big changes lately that have me feeling good, exhausted, tired, excited, nervous, and one hundred other emotions.

1. We have to move:

   A month or two ago we found out that we have to move as our landlords are selling. Then we found out last week that they might have a buyer and we can stay. Feeling all the weird emotions about this. We would like to stay, but we also feel weird about not knowing for sure if we will be moving or not.

2. I am NOT going back to work:

   This is exciting (mostly) as I am committing to focusing solely on my blog and graphic design. I say mostly because I do love the people that I worked with. At the start of the month I signed on with an agency that is going to be helping me with my sponsored posts giving me more time for everything else. My stomach turns as I write this out, even though I have been working away on the blog the past months actually saying I am not going back feels so surreal. A big thank you to all of you who read and support me.

3. Evelyn is almost One!

   I honestly cannot even believe a year has past (almost). I am starting to plan her first birthday and like everyone of my kids birthday I go back and forth from “something small” to “let’s just go all out”. I am pretty sure the later is going to happen, because I just love planning parties, decorating and creating beautiful events. She still has no teeth and isn’t walking yet, two milestones I am so curious if she will reach before her birthday or not. I’m happy either way, because I feel like once both of those come, we will have a toddler on our hands people.

I am feeling so blessed in this season of life. For everything we have, even if we have to give up the place that we are currently living. A place that I never thought I would ever not want to move out of. It was about a week before we found out that we had to move that I started to feel grateful for it. I have been missing our old home (that we sold) so much… I even accidentally drove “home” to it the other day. When we found out that it was time to move I laughed and said, “Well I guess God was teaching me a lesson about gratefulness there.”

Been feeling so grateful. Among all the other feelings, gratefulness is the feeling that best describes this season.